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So, it’s hard for me to speak without yelling or suddenly crying right now. I can do it, but it takes from the tiny fund of psychic energy I have to work with.

But I can still write ~ no one knows if I start leaking in the middle of that but my long-distance tormentors, and they’re already busy making fun of me anyway, that just gives them one more thing to chortle over.

So I’ll write you little notes from time to time, for our connection, and you can feel free to write also if you want to share, okay?

I’m sending this to our group chat because, while your other friends might not appreciate me so well, I’d like them to at least fully appreciate you, and there’s one thing I left off that list of your various excellences ~ that is courage.

Nobody shows up right on the gang’s turf prepared to do whatever’s necessary to get the vehicle running which that very gang brought to a halt ~ without that.

So, I didn’t watch the video you brought down yesterday for very long because it made me smile, both to see Ed getting his cat therapy and to see you so genuinely happy about it, bless your heart.

It made me smile. And, you see, I can’t let myself smile right now. Then I would also have to cry.

Absolute equanimity is the only thing which has even a prayer of carrying me through however many more years I’ll be required to endure this twenty-four hour torment.

I just wanted to let you know today ~ you are deeply appreciated, sister.