When you realize a friend would rather let your relationship break than do the inner work required to fix it ~ and then discover the trouble they’ve already taken to “justify” their position, behind your back, with everyone you know ~ and anyone they think you might come to know.

*****

Recorded Reading (2:26): https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/p1tye4svctjpwp9keb2gw/Ill-Resolved.mp3?rlkey=v2rpyrouz0tes5j7n63wxzpmw&st=42tsiwm7&dl=0

*****

Ill Resolved

It seems acceptable to you
To leave our issue ill-resolved,
Assuming my shortcoming by
Discrepancies unsolved:

You think me less apprec’iative
Than I ought to be
For given blessings lately which
Have benefitted me

By such excess
Endangering
What’s widely known as
“A good thing”

(Used, in common
Sense, which mean
That survival
Instinct keen

Puts all worthy other
Interests to bed
To come out, in the end,
“Ahead”) —

But I see the
Advantage flow
Both ways twixt self
And folks I know

However small,
However great,
I trouble to
Full well relate

To everyone,
Whate’er their role,
From genuine heart
True and whole

Our thoughts and actions
Should intend
All good for every
Faithful friend

My heart those good
Intentions fit,
The truths I tell
Not changed a whit

With list’ning ears
Paying good heed
Unto each spirit’s
Truest need

I’d love to make
That clear to you
If I thought that
More words would do

What too many
So far have not ~
Quite the reverse
(Depressing thought)!

So I find that I cannot employ
My only skill ~ that is the word ~
Already inundated by
Too many you have heard…

Remember what you know,
What you yourself have seen from me
In our own relationship
~ You, personally:

There’s been no lack of gratitude,
No hesitation reaching back,
No unreas’nable attitude,
Unwarranted attack,

Forsaking not the gracious
Arts cooperation of,
No shortage of consideration,
Uncondit’ional love…

Though you, by myself, have
Treated with every fairness been,
As well as much appreciation
From this woman seen,

Seems difficult for you to trust
That same to others I have been
Thus, though regretfully, I must
Abandon friendship we between ~

You hoping cultivated
Social ignorance,
From which I find me powerless
To further my defense,

Somehow will ill compromise
In the looked-for end
My credibility in eyes
Of any hoped-for friend

*****

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